Throughout middle school I was part of the Concert and Jazz Band. I loved playing the saxophone it was a new kind of release. But as I went into high school many people discouraged me from going back into band. I still regret till this day that I didn't. I was told academics would bring me success. I finished Chemistry, Math and Biology, but my mind kept wandering back to the time were I played my solos.

Cheers

Fear grows inside me

it rises up like I'm a monster

the lights blind me

I can't see the crowd

I hear the music begin to dim

begin to silence

for me

I'm screaming on the inside

it's hot everywhere

I feel like I'm inside a candle

the music drops to a whisper

I panic as I stand

I enter quick

nervous

Playing

the notes flow

Realize

this is the feeling

the feeling I love

but too soon

too soon it's over

Done

squinting through the crowd

the lights

I see faces

my parents

the lights blind me again

but I saw grins

Proud